The hardest good bye

Today I text my ex to see when he was leaving so we could hangout one last time and say good bye. He told me he was leaving in 30 minutes. I thought he would of told me sooner but I guess not. I didn't think it would feel like this when he left but it.. hurt. I really do miss him but he told me he would see me over thanksgiving break and told me we can skype but thanksgiving is two months away and it feels like its longer and I feel like skype isn't enough. But it will have to do. Maybe the fact that the good bye was over a text made it harder for me maybe in person he though it would be harder for him. Either way its not easy after three years of knowing each other and being so close. I just hope nothing changes and he keeps his promise to keep in touch. Well all I know for now is that I miss him. Well life is full of good byes and all we can do is keep breathing. So that's what ill do and see what happens...

Super confused

So if you remember Carlos moved for college. Well he still texts me all the time and whenever I get on facebook he has to IM me right when I get on. Weird right? well idk what his deal is I thought when he moved away he wouldn't talk to me anymore but I guess I was wrong. He still flirts with me but here's a juicy detail that I recently found out. He had/ has (not totally sure) a girlfriend when he was texting me one of my girls told me that a few weeks ago. Which I have no idea why he would be texting me when he was dating another girl but I'm kinda thinking there might be more to our what I thought was innocent flirting. Most guys wouldn't keep it up for this long would they? Its been 3 years and whenever he breaks up with a girl he comes back to me. I just don't get it! I wish guys just told us girls what was on their mind sometimes I mean the stuff besides sex. Its not like I would mind if Carlos had feelings for me even though hes so far away he will be back for breaks and summer but who knows what that boy is thinking. I guess ill just go with it and see what happens until then I shall stay super confused.

Done

Ok so if you read my last post you can understand that I'm fed up with guys. I feel like they think they can do what they want to me but here's a news flash they CAN'T! I'm glad I'm moving to a new city soon so I can make a fresh start. I think I'm ready for a relationship finally. Its been over a year and well its time to find a good guy that will care about me cause I sure as hell know that Paul and Stephan never did. My ex on the other hand I have no clue what his caring level is but its not enough. And for Carlos he still texts me a lot so I have no idea what his deal is but hes in Montana so ill never know or pursue anything so far away. I haven't felt this way in a long time but I want to be a relationship with someone who will be there for me not just for the moment or just for a hook up. But you know what sucks is that I actually kinda liked those guys and all they liked was my body. So I'm done,done with hanging out with jerks, done with letting them make me feel like they care, I'm just done. Here's to a new life, new city,new guys. Oh and I met one that lives right around the corner from where ill be living and he seems like a good guy plus hes cute ill keep you updated :)

Pissed... I THINK SO!

Well to start off lets just say that Mr. Stephan is in very HOT water! So a few days ago he text me and asked if I wanted to hang out the next day. I said yes and he told me to be at his house at a certain time. Being fashionably late like I aways am I show up at his house and he isn't even there WTF DUDE!!!? So I leave after shooting him a text that I was there and I get around the corner and guess who is pulling up yep the idiot. I go back to his house and he tells me that he has to be somewhere soon and that the text he sent me was for someone else. Does something smell fishy? He really cant be that stupid to not send me a text later that night or the next day telling me he sent it to the wrong person. Hmmm I smell a lier. He told me to text him the next day so we could hang out after he said sorry ( didn't buy it) so I said ok and left. The next day I text him at the time he told me to and guess what he never text me back and my friend even called him and still nothing. All I have to say is that he better be in the hospital or have another damn good reason for blowing me off or he will end up in the hospital. 3;)