best week in a long time

So this last week I went home for thanksgiving and it was the best week I have had in a long time. Of  course seeing my family was awesome but I got to hang out with my ex. I was really unsure how it was going to go but it was surprisingly amazing. I'm starting to think he might feel the same way as I feel about him. When he kissed he said god i missed this which I think might be a sign of something good then we just held each other it felt nice to be with him again. Later we went to his brothers house and he held my hand the whole time this has to be more than just a friends thing right? I only wish I knew what he was thinking boys are so confusing! But he told me we would see each other during Christmas break which is in two weeks so I guess we will see what happens :) but for now I'm just going on wishful thinking oh and for that other guy that's super creepy I think hes getting a hint but if not he will soon ;)

what is love?

Have you have had someone that you just can't seem to forget no matter what? Well I'm joing your club I finally know what it feels like. It's like once you taste perfection (in your eyes) theres just no one that can even come close to that. Everyone else will only be second best and you will never give yourself to another person like you did with the one that you will never forget. You spend your day's thinking about that person (which is annoying at times) and feel so empty that you don't think you will ever be whole again. It's that one person that you will always be able to forgive no matter what they do. Is this love? I don't really now what I'm feeling all I know is that one person is the only one that can make everything ok. The only problem is that person hasn't talked to me for 2 months. I have never felt this way before and I don't even know what to do I'm so lost. Oh and by the way if your wondering if I'm going to tell you who it is I'm not I like to keep people guessing so you can guess all you want but its probably not the person your thinking it is. Well this was a little more deep than most of my posts but I had to get it out. Everything will get better in time right?

WTF bro?!

Its amazing how bad someone can make you feel by just sending you a text. This new guy I met lets call him Jim is one of those guys that has to make you feel bad to make himself feel good. He seems like a controlling person that wants you to be the way he wants you to be and wants you to change for him. Well I'm not a girl that's going to take shit like that and I'm sure as hell not going to change myself I'm perfect the way I am. Hes also the obsessed kind that talks about kids and getting married well news flash dude I don't even know if that's something I want sure as hell not anytime soon for that fact! To tell you the truth I don't even know what I want for dinner let alone anything else. I'm still trying to figure out what I want to do with my life and find myself I cant plan for anything at the moment. Oh and last night he told me he loved me WTF??!!! I just met this guy maybe two weeks ago and then he asked me if I loved him HELL NO I don't love you I don't even know you that well. Well I just have 5 more weeks left in this term and I think its time that I seriously think about a location change.